Orual's Love?

Now we all know from reading the book, how ugly Orual was, but i find that her jealousy and her hate toward psyche, make her even more ugly. So can you been ugly in Faith, are you living a life that is beautiful or ugly. Can you if not chosen by God even be beautiful for that matter, or do you have to stay ugly forever, and can be be ugly for a bit and the come to be beautiful. I believe that it was Orual seething hate that made her truly ugly, and it was what ultimately led to her death "Long did I hate you. Long did I fear you. I might—" maybe she was sayign she might be beautiful if she did not hate or fear loving?